Friday, March 31, 2006


I cannot believe what has happened. My (lovely!?!) best friend has phoned me up and told me that I was in The Sun yesterday. Now I'm thinking it will be a reference to what a big mistake SAS made when he fired me (I can dream) or something equally complimentary....but no.

I have the dubious honour of being the runner-up in The Sun's lokalike competition with DEAN GAFFNEY!!!!!! AAARRRRGGGGHHHHH.......

I would post pictures of us side by side just so I can convince myself that they have got it completely wrong but I am really worried that I'll look and decide that there is a similarity. Even if you think there is please don't tell me.

I'm off to lock myself in the toilet (avoiding looking in the mirror) and have a good cry!

Thursday, March 30, 2006


For the first time in weeks I actually enjoyed watching the programme last night...and not because the lovely Jo was fired but because there seemed to be a bit more of an emphasis on what was a real business task. I also hated watching it because I would have loved to have been there and think I would have had a good crack at selling some cars. I know how I like to be sold a car and I think I could have put it into good practice.

As it was, Ruth was shining last night. She was the only one who really seemed to 'get it' and it was a damn shame that the team she was on lost again. I do think that they should have divided the total sales by the number of people on the team as there is definitely an advantage in having an extra person there. Tuan has said (on the Internet Forum) that there was no advantage as there could only be two sales at any one time but while the others are sellinfg those who aren't could be doing something (even if it's just blowing up more balloons).

And my lovely friend Jo was finally given the boot. I do think that it was right that she went and I know that she won't be too mad at me saying that. I have the upmost respect for her though. She is the only one left who was really being herself. She took the bollocking from the salesman on the chin and admitted her mistake - something that other people seem unable to do. She had the guts to stand up and be counted when she knew that others were against her. Don't get me wrong, Jo can be tough to take sometimes but she is a good person with a huge heart and someone I am proud to know. There has been speculation that Jo will never be employed again but I believe she will be a huge success in everythng she does. Her father was amazing on You're Fired and said what all her friends and family were thinking (I'm sure).

And what of those who are left? It was almost comical to watch the winning 'team' (there is no 'I' in team but there seems to be a lot of 'me, me, me') move out of the boardroom as if they had just been told that they would being going to the bingo for their treat. It would have been really interesting to see how they would have performed as a unit next week but it is inevitable that they will be split again. I still maintain that certain individuals are faililng to actually do anything other than hang on the coat tails of those who are going for it. I don't know if SAS notices or even cares - only time will tell.

I am looking forward to seeing what becomes of Jo and can't wait to see her (next week at a charity gig for Ben's charity) and tell her what a STAR she is.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006


I know it is blatent advertising but I guess that this is my blog so I can do what I want. After laughing myself silly at the Boleg Bros Firing Films (see the links on the news page) I am now the proud owner of a You're Fired mug. I am gutted that they don't do personalised ones (I would have loved to have seen me getting the 'pan to the head' firing) but I can have a good laugh everytime I have a coffee. Although SAS and Nick look really realistic it is the Margaret character that is scarily true to life. It has got a kind if blank but knowing stare - just like the woman herself.

I understand the Bros are trying to get a mug on Jonothan Ross on Friday. Shame Harry Hill isn't still on - he'll do anything Apprentice related!

Have a look on - you will definitely get a good laugh (and may be persuaded to get the mug!).

Thursday, March 23, 2006


It was so nice to see Big Brother back on our screens last night....okay, slight exaggeration there, but what on earth was that programme last night. There were absolutely no business lessons there and, frankly, it was another mad firing with no real justification for it.

It makes me wonder what I gave up my job and time with my family for. It is becoming increasingly clear that Sir Alan has picked his choices right at the beginning and is now just making sure he gets rid of the ones he doesn't want when the opportunity arises - no matter how they have performed in the task.

I did think the editng was really clever as, if I didn't know who was going to get fired, I would have assumed that Paul's advert (and it was Paul's advert) would have been the losing one. It was clear that SaS didn't like it - just as well SAS did! What is the point of even having the experts? They said that Ruth's advert was closest to the brief and it would have appealed most to the audience to whom it was meant to appeal. And SAS just ignores that....

When are we actually going to see certain people come out of their shell? There are a couple of individuals who have contributed nothing - other than to complain when they don't like something so they can say so in the boardroom should they be pulled in. It just seems that the longer you stay out of the spotlight the longer you are going to be in. There should some criticism for those not willing to step up to the mark - there is in 'real life'.

I see that Alexa is on Richard and Judy tonight. She is becoming a real media babe. Good on her - she is a lovely person and was just unlucky to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. I will be glued to the screen at 5pm to see how many times they ask her about her famous cousin and chickens.

Let me know what you want to know. Although I was out early - I have kept in touch with most of the Apprentices and am happy to divulge as much as I can.

Again - a big thank you to all of you who are still emailing. I can't respons at the moment as there is something mad happening with my Yahoo Mail (if anyone knows why the reply button won't work please let me know). xxxx

Monday, March 20, 2006


Hello, hello and hello again! It has been the maddest 10 days of my life but I am now back to being able to write a bit on the blog about what has been going on.

First is really the show itself. I still can't say too much about it as we are being held to our contracts and it can get messy (as Sharon found out) but it was such a nightmare to have to watch myself being fired all over again.

It is strange to watch yourself and even I was shouting at the TV! "Defend yourself woman"!! The truth is that I really didn't think it was important for me to speak up at the time as I was confident that I had performed well on the first 2 tasks and I had been the best of a bad lot in this task. I will not say that my performance was flawless - not checking to see if that guy had the jacket we wanted was beyond forgivable. But, I had kept my calm and had managed Jo throughout the task. The weird thing is that Sir Alan was NEVER going to get rid of her and I found out this week that it was always between myself and Alexa. I don't think either of us deserved to go but I really think that the decision he made was a mad one - and he gave the worst reason ever. If he didn't want another lawyer - don't let me give up my job, leave my family and believe that I was really in with a chance. He was the one who said it was real life - well, make a real decision based on business performance......AAARRRRGGGGHHHH

Having said all of that it turns out that getting fired when I did was probably the best thing that could have happened. I LOVED doing my You're Fired and it was great to meet Adrian (who was a star) and Felicity (who is just as gorgeous as she looks on the TV)! It was such a night of being spoiled and pampered and I was happy to give the panel a real go. I was so happy to see that there were only about 3 'FIRED' placards held up at the end of the programme (although one of them was Nargis!).

WEDNESDAY: I traveled back up to Scotland after doing a bit of Press with Taylor Herring and then spent the rest of the day on the phone to reporters - all quite tame really and most wanting to hit the 'sex sells' thing again. I was happy to talk for hours!

THURSDAY : This was a great day when I spoke to radio stations live. My favorite was the BBC 2 Business Slot where I was proposed to by a listener! More of that later. I loved doing the radio stuff as I could talk tough business woman while sitting in my nightie and slippers! There was loads of press and my favourite headline was the Sun's 'You're Feart' (scared - for those of you outside this fair country!).

FRIDAY : I had a massive interview with the Sunday Mirror and a 2-hour photo-shoot. There was an in-pouring of emails and comments and even some job offers. I want to take this opportunity to thank every single person who wrote to me to offer their commiserations and good wishes. I hope that I replied to everyone (and there were about 150) but if I haven't yet, I definitely will. It was really important to me to know what people thought and I have never been so touched! People are generally pretty damn nice. I received my second and third marriage proposals - I just can't decide at the moment - all too busy!!

WEEKEND - More TV, more radio and more press. I honestly thought people might have heard enough but they kept coming. I was reveling in it though - does that make me a bad person?

And the most exciting thing of all - on Wednesday I was invited to attend the World Premier of the new Sharon Stone film 'Basic Instinct 2'. Me, Karen Bremner from Newbigging, nobody- was at the premier and invited to walk along the red carpet and I WAS PAPPED!!!!!! I went to the aftershow party and one point I was sitting in a booth talking to Christian Slater and thought that I had entered the Twilight Zone.

There is so much more to tell but I have to give these fingers a rest.

Hope everyone is well....

Monday, March 06, 2006


This brings back so many memories...


This has got to be the best bit of Apprentice merchandise I have seen:


Is it sad that I am already looking forward to the next episode and it's only Monday? I don't know if my heart can take the strain of this for the next 2 months.

There is still no sign of the blog being allowed to be put on the site so I will continue with my ramblings in the meantime.

I have been having a good nosey at all the other candidates sites and it is so weird to see that, in loads of cases, their sites really reflect their personality.

Tuan's has very defined serious and funny parts..and that is so him. When I first met Tuan I wasn't sure about him at all. His wit is SO dry that you can't really work out whether he is insulting you or just winding you up. I am going to take the road of least resistance and decide that he was just having a laugh with me most of the time! He is the consumate professional when required, though, and can really turn it on when needed.

Jo's site is just SO Jo. There is the wacky picture in the corner and the deep messages throughout...but no danger at all that she takes herself too seriously. Look beyond the flashy graffics and you see a see a woman with very strong beliefs and principles.

And mine - well, I was as much an Apprentice groupy at the start of this as I am now and that is why it is so Apprentice focused. If you want to know a bit more about me you can just ask - get in touch or press the comment button - but I really felt this was a site about me on the Apprentice and not about me personally!

There are loads of other sites, but if you want The Apprentice gossip keep popping back and have a look at the latest news and blog.

PS I can't believe the Michelle/Syed story has broken already. Not sure why he would have dumped her for what she said about him on episode 2 - I don't remember her saying a single thing about him! Did I miss it?

Thursday, March 02, 2006


This is such a lovely chance to be able to say a huge thank you to all the people who I know (and lots who I don't know) who have been so supportive of my 'performance' so far on the show.

Last night was a bit tough for me as I was not expecting to see Nargis lay into me on the You're Fired show. I have no idea what she was talking about regarding dishonesty but that is pretty rough for anyone to take. In the profession which I have chosen, integrity and honesty are paramount and for someone to question it is for them to question everthing that I have worked for nearly 18 years to achieve (don't do the maths - I went to Uni at 16!).

I would love to write more about the show itself but hopefully you will see that on the BBC website or on this one once it has been cleared.

Suffice it to say that I didn't enjoy the humiliation that either team endured and can only hope next week is a better one.